“i wish you all the time to do the things you like to do
i wish you more time to go out, be, um with friends
i wish you more time in disneyland
i wish us at the beach, time together, we spend”

the sweetest tết words from teens and toddlers
who seem to know what’s what in life
i wish they forever foster that spirit
as they grow from innocence to certain strifes

we’ve traversed our parents’ historic trauma
and collected a few more of our own
drawn together by childhood bonds
laughing and healing in our warmth, shone

evolved this suffering with gifts we received
painfully wrapped in thorns
careful now to cast mostly petals
so that their young crowns are softly adorned.
<3

“liiink!” – surprised eyes
a beat of recognition
to a loving joyful sprint
freely towards me

spirit swells to burst
basking in spazzy spins
a jump to my packed things
for his known auntie treats

sweetly poignant love stings
on my chest
from his bright looks back
to ensure i’m still there

following him up
warm ecstatic and present
link my darling
you are my full heart

delight when your giggle peals high
– a contrast to your soft leather low tone
owlish handsome of gazes and gait
wish to sense more – your unknown

sometimes i miss you
esp when it comes to design
loved arguing with you
of what made things divine

i still win at typography
and you with your ui
we were a rocky team
structure and soul combined

you’re becoming a chapter
and soon just a page
disheartened by this plot twist
while with others, i’m still engaged

i love the people that surrounded us
your second family, you once said
maybe you meant it at the time
but you turned your back and fled

it’s self… preservation
i know, i know, i know
significant time has now passed –
love, i hope we continue to grow.

the yearn and want
of a desired delight
a warmth and a glow
felt in your gentle sight

i wonder of your secrets
your discreet ebb and flow
lapping towards discovery
still out of reach, to know

i think we have a coziness
and reverberating energy
it makes me want to love you more
cautious hope – meld with me, please <3

darling sparkling,
little man link.
gentle sweet smiles,
a head raised to blink –
into soft breezes
and twirp chirps of birds.
your sunlit regal porch,
attention un disturbed.
you have my heart, fully,
sweet innocent fluffy one.
i’ll fiercely protect,
our days of never done.

oh i like you i like you
just wanted to say
can’t help but think of you
most every day

can we be friends
that eventually fall in love
platonic or romantic
i'd like any of the above

there is one thing tho
that make it pesky complicated
every time i see you
my mind wants you nekkid
😈

pitiful dance,
in x-axis sync.
push and pull,
we engage, you rethink.

sparkly stings,
that surge the heart.
momentary shimmers,
that quickly depart.

never mine, nevermind,
sings ethereal cannons.
a salve and a light,
myself i won’t abandon.

velvet shifting softness
gentle jelly salt swish,
volcanic eruptions -
stand strong in time lapse
lap lap…

this blue
on blue
with melodic pace,
sudden sporadic fairytale kisses
from a furry fluff face.

each impression set -
in this little world
are gently smoothed away,
imprinted rivulets stay tho
from echoed hurt days.

now i sway and dance,
spinning dizzily around –
in free-spirited heart space,
with wholeness,
sunlit, tight, embrace.
♥️

oh is it a disappointment
an inevitable cliche
of surface smoke and mirrors
glossy plumages in display

this tiresome story
of pitfalls pulleys and props
drawn into a crafted loom
masking plastic id, backdrop

hope can be nauseating
with a normative xy lens in place
simplistic eyeroll perceptions –
i’ll exit this play with grace.

“don’t ever swipe on a gay man’s phone”
my shy friend said to me -
with his miscommunicated mime swipe, just previously.
on beat i responded, “it’s ok, i’ve seen d*cks!” –
and we laughed together
in our safe, loving clique.
xo

oh hi.
taut sandy wave,
that cosines into grip.
flashing eyes and whites,
with a velvet lilt hum thrum.
currents physics flows,
and parches my mind -
drinking in the sight,
to stave off desired delight.
twitches and tics -
mired in cryptics
lift that fog for me
you darling beast feast.

soft volcanic winds
wrapped embrace.
diamond head top
thick grasses sway.
up there air,
serene protective heights,
from mocking hisses –
pathetic means.
hear sweet coos
of doves instead,
smiling with me
for peace that spreads.
move with the shifts,
the mountain protects.
crown of fragrant flowers
queen of my space
🌺 🌋

sunshine warmth
hugs on skin
chin raise to light
presence begins
like a kiss
touching my face
feeling summer’s
recent embrace
fluttering dress
ripples in wind
dancing with life
a moment, pinned.
xo

thick wavy waterfall
splashing down to clouds
flowing behind arcs
streaks of lovely grey, proud

sight tracing the lines
of sturdy rock curves
from boulders to dips,
a rippling soft swerve

want. and the desire to linger
twirl wisps through my fingers
drinking it in, lips twitching
mischievous, bewitching

it’d be splashy i think
to take this to the brink –
and jump-plunge-exhilarate
surface a breath, float… satiate.
🌊 😈

tucker i’m luckier

to have first adventures with you
devastating puppy eyes
looking into mines
as we booped noses to soothe

at the end of the day
you looked to my gaze
and quietly took me in.

felt you could see me,
releasing those fears freely
and loving each other, dear friend.
♥️🐶

diamond dogs of day
capturing beach life at play
delighted hooray

scruffy head
puppy eyes
boopable nose
hooman disguise

when life opens
inevitable potholes
just need to see your face
to soothe my soul
.
always thinking
when i can see you again
measuring days
til fluffy zen.
.
link. <3

arghhh you’re so dashing
with that big smile flashing
making me laugh
creating heart photographs
whatever this will be
i’m in wholeheartedly
and i really do like you –
hope you like-like me too
xo.

when i get a little weary
i sing a little song
about working for the dogs
to keep me hummed along.
life’s timing likes to dogpile (haha)
with so many things to do
all of which i want
to keep my purpose true.
joined paths with faboo ladies
whose spirits are aligned
caring for the canines
whose hearts can mend with time.
this path i never knew
illuminated when i was ready
am grateful for this journey
holding my perspective steady.
huzzah for dogs.